Am I back on the wagon? No.
How do I feel about that? Like crap.
Have I weighed in this week? HEEELLLLLZ NO!
And, there you have it. I am full of negative thoughts, and what ifs, and I shoulds, and thinking about where I could be if I hadn't royally f-ed up.
It seems so simple. Start the F*&$ over. Easier said than done.
I'll keep you posted.
Kris, I am sorry this is so hard. Try to be kind to the most important person in your life, my sweet friend....YOU.
ReplyDeleteThis is a horrible battle that you and I fight constantly. Our addiction is not one that is willing to let us go easily. That voice in our head that tells us that there is no use trying to do this, that we can't ever get there is TOTALLY WRONG!!! We don't have to listen to that anymore. Tell it to shut the F$*@ UP!!
ReplyDeleteSending you love and encouragement!! Alison