Yesterday, I decided I really should weigh myself, but I didn't want to look. It's silly, I know, but I didn't want to be so discouraged that I gave up before barely getting started again. At the same time, I didn't want to get to the end of the month without having a concrete measurement of how things went. Yes, the pants may be looser, but I like a number! Fortunately, my scale has a lovely feature where you can see your previous weight after you weigh yourself. So, I weighed myself, but didn't look, knowing I will be able to see what that number was whenever I decide to weigh in again. Pretty crafty, huh?! You won't beat ME, scale!
You may be wondering what my plan is or you may not give a crap. Either way, I'm going to tell you. This month (and I started on Tuesday), I am not going to be tracking or counting, but I am going to focus on eating with a purpose. Usually (hopefully),the purpose will be because I am hungry. It may be because it's been awhile since I have eaten and I should probably eat something (trying not to go more than 3-4 hours without eating). But, it may also be because I am craving something or I am eating for pleasure to really enjoy the taste of something delicious or maybe even because I am enjoying myself in a social situation. And, I think those purposes are OK too, in moderation. Most importantly, I don't want to find myself blindly stuffing my face with food I don't even want without being aware of how much I am eating or why I am eating it. A couple purposes for eating which are off limits are eating to soothe emotions and/or stress. I am hoping by eating more mindfully and with purpose, I will be more conscious of the choices I am making and start to become more in tune with my body's wants and needs when it comes to food.
I won't lie and say that this is all I am doing as I am also trying to focus on making healthy choices and reasonable portion sizes, just without counting and measuring. So far, three days in, I'm feeling pretty good about how this is going. I have been a bit hungry, but I am considering that a detox from the bingeing over the holidays. When I have gotten hungry, truly hungry, I have eaten something, even if it is only an hour or so after a meal. I have grabbed things like a small packet of almonds and a small handful of dried cranberries or an apple or a small bag of popcorn. Reasonable choices, I think.
The other thing I am focusing on is channeling my inner Buddhist by incorporating some relaxation and meditation techniques. Thanks to fellow blogger Jill, I started reading this great website Zen Habits. It is written in such a succinct way that it makes it easy to gradually incorporate the habits. I'm starting with the list of most popular posts on the "Start Here" page and reading and trying to incorporate one each week. So, this week, I am focusing on BREATHE. I can honestly say that I have been breathing successfully all week! :-) And, mindfully doing so several times a day.
Well, this turned out to be a much longer post than I expected. If you are still reading at this point, I would love to hear your thoughts on this concept of eating with a purpose. I am sure I didn't invent that myself, but I will be sure to publish a book about it if I did!